okay so another day's up.
and nothing has been done ><
focus vicky, focus!
just 9 more dayssss!

didn't get to see mummy today ):
was supposed to go in the evening, but dad couldn't drop me as it was raining.
came back home.
oh well.
at least she's back home tomorrow!
thanks alot, God! <3

had a chat with Nisha this afternoon
well about stuff.
thought through quite abit of things and all.
wanted to copy paste bits of the convo, but can't retrieve history unless Nisha's online.
oh well, some other time then(:

it's like y'know exams seem so insignificant.
after all what's the point of exams?
grades? are they the real things that matter?
and we're living in this world, where we grow up with the impression that grades are the only things that matter.
when the REAL world outside isn't like that.
in reality, it's full of cruelty and injustice.
full of hatred and vengeance.
full of unfairness and anger.
full of this, full of that.
while we, on the other hand, are sitting at the other end with the impression that as long as I mug my ass off and ace that exams and do well in this and that, I'm guaranteed a great future.
seriously, what a delusion.

wanted to post something here.

" I’ve been making a list of the things they don’t teach you at school.
They don’t teach you how to love somebody.
They don’t teach you how to be famous.
They don’t teach you how to be rich or how to be poor.
They don’t teach you how to walk away from someone you don’t love any longer.
They don’t teach you how to know what’s going on in someone else’s mind.
They don’t teach you what to say to somomeone who’s dying.
They don’t teach you anything worth knowing. "
— Neil Gaiman

how true.
and I just had something else to add on to the list.
They don't teach you what the REAL world is like

peace out.

Labels: Nisha, thoughts

Just some thoughts about things that have been happening recently.

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In one of the RARE intellectual conversations I actually have with Nisha:

Take me back to the start; says:
I realised that sometimes you need to place trust in your decision, you need to place confidence/trust in yourself when you decide something.

Take me back to the start; says:
often we always question and that's what that makes us confused. haha i recently had to make decisions on what to do next and all, but i think it's very important to believe and trust yourself first before doing anythg else.

Take me back to the start; says:
and i realise i lack that resolve, that's why i end up confused.

Take me back to the start; says:
but really

Take me back to the start; says:
we question ourselves too much, you know why? cos we dont believe fully in what we do

nisha says:
haha, but thats good

nisha says:
its like criticising your own ideas to find faults and then improve

nisha says:
we question, then we find solutions

Take me back to the start; says:
yeah but there's an extent. there needs to be a line in between questioning and believing - having trust and confidence. cos if you question too much, things will definitely contradict, it'd be challenging sticking to a single decision

Take me back to the start; says:
that's what i feel

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Yep I guess that pretty much sums one of the many things that I've been realising lately.

I'd like to end this post with something ABI told me; Those simple words had such great impact and made me think alot of things in a different way.

Everything is okay in the end; If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

Labels: Nisha, thoughts