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Sunday, July 13, 2008

and now the ultimate question being,

Do I really want to live my life the way I'm leading it now?

I'm desperately trying to look for a change in my life now. Alot of things I'm doing isnt right. Alot of things are screwed. Alot of things are wrongly prioritised. And I have this really bad habit of not sticking to my personal goals. I have this bad habit of procrastinating. I have this bad habit to slack the whole day away even though I know there's loads of things to be made right/done.

I keep saying I need the drive, I havent got the drive. But I've come to realise, how to get the drive, if I'm not searching for it, if I'm not looking for it.

I am searching for meaning, meaning of this life. Meaning for the motivation and drive to do what I've dreamt. Meaning to make dreams come true, cos in reality dreams do exist.

God, I pray to you, no matter how rocky the journey is with loads of obstacles, please give me the strength to bring me through it and carry on.

Because I really want to make a difference in the lives of the people and loved ones around me. I really want to make a difference to my own life.
Sunday, July 6, 2008

KALACHITRA 08!

was a reasounding success. i dont care about what the world says, but us ics members felt that it was awesomely and undeniably a big blast.

had ino practice from 8-10am in school, where mr mani was revising the whole 4 songs again and again. but i was really thankful for the practice, cos ino sounded like really SO MUCH MORE better during the show, it was really so much better than the rehearsals where everybody looked dead.

okay so after ino, we had tech run for ino in the hall. was okay lah, and then i was slacking with my third cousin, karthigah(YEAH she IS my cousin), crapping with her and all sorts of rubbish. we were like cheering on with the rest, while the other performances went on. alot of the performance made tremendous tremendous improvements, and it was really good.

oh and karthigah was telling me about smses she received at weird times of the day. hahha it was FUNNY!

okay so, then it was lunch. KOTHU PARATA(sp?)! yay chandra! oh and milo drinks that were kept in the magnolia cooler. yeah i wasnt able to finish lunch ): oh and i went giving time-out chocolates to a couple of people, cos everybody was like stressing and emoing like the day before.

hahah, and me being the usual random me, went to pose with jessica's campaign models. hahah it was damn funny. okay so after lunch, we went up to the hall where everybody was going crazy. the song people were practicing, and everybody else joined in and was singing(out of tune-ly), dancing, being high spastic and random and SINGING HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL SONGS of all things. i know we all turned crazy. and then the exco had their lunch and came in and everyone like got out of craziness.

razia, anjana and all these people were filling in coloured rice for the kuthuvilaku's decoration, while nageis, manee etc were doing the VARUGA thing in the foyer. it looked really really really great!

slacked a little, and at about 2.30, we needed to start getting to ino room for make-up and all. had briefing from razia and wala for 45mins or so. and the briefing was SO FUNNY. everybody had our screws loose, and we were behaving childishly/monkeyishly like as if we had some deprived childhood or something. and KAYALVILI, you're damn funny lah. cos while razia and wala was briefing is, kayal was giving background sound effects on the mridangam. she was moved from the mridangam to the front of the tamil room, to beside the two chairs because of her really-loosened screw and spasticness. everybody was rofling. and then we were supposed to indicate our presence, and razia was like say anything, and dharini went "AAJA NACHLE". hahahahha, and subsequently the other hindi dancers were doing so with loads of laughter in between.

okay so after the briefing, we moved to the ks chee theatre with our instruments. went to hunt for the cleanest toilet in school, but gave up and eventually landed in second floor toilet. so we washed our faces and went back to the hall to put foundation and all those make up.

yeah and so, i was on a wild-goose hunt for my sister, and then i saw MS shafali coming. hahha i think she was in a hurry or something, she didnt notice the VARUGA and accidentally stepped on the flowers. she went to the GYM, not GEEM, to see the hindi dancers and help them i think.

then it was tea! this time it was poori, but unfortunately cos they had to be packed, they were FLATTENED. so we ate flat pooris with milo again! i guess it was those milos that sustained us throughout actually! and then the hindi dancers and other performers came and joined us also, and they looked really gorgeous. oh and purnima was there also. yeah and then took some photos of people having their tea, or semi-dinner, or dinner or whatver you call it.

okay so i bought two tickets for irfanah, and her friend (who i realised just a couple of minutes ago, that irfanah's friend was AARTHI'S SECOND COUSIN! what a small small world!) yeah and so i was anticipating irfanah at the foyer, when the guests started arriving. i was really stressed cos i had to be in the ks chee already to prepare for ino's item. irfanah was caught in some traffic jam): i saw my perimma, and she reminded me that i havent worn my pottu. and i went "OMGOSH YA" and another wild-goose chase for the person in-charge for putting the pottus.

couldnt find razia, so srruthi helped me. (thanks srruthi!) yep and went back to the foyer again for more anticipation for irfanah and aarthi's second cousin. they finally came, and i stopped hyperventilating. passed the tickets to them, and went back to ks chee. it was then when i first APPRECIATED the strategical location of the ks chee, right next to the foyer.

and then the big part. THE SHOW STARTED.

in the ks chee, we got that news from a runner and that it'll be our turn in like 5 minutes to report. and so people again began hyperventialing, praying, etc etc. the veena section, us, were like revising the lines again, esp for bo shambo. okay then arthi prem came and informed us that a runner would be calling us in five minutes and everyone were all like freaking out a little. and so the runner came, and we took our instruments and went to the waiting area outside the hall. we were all like breathing in and breathing out and all, and then it was time to go backstage already. nitya was speaking then, and everybody else behind the curtains were like hugging and wishing each other good luck, praying and all. haha and then MRS SHIRLEY TAN gave a speech, that was unsurprisingly long, so we had more time to compose ourselves. then it was ino performance alr, wala and reichel introduced us and the curtains opened. i could like FEEL THE SPOTLIGHT HEAT, from where i was sitting, it was quite warm. and my mum, of all places has to sit right in front of where i was on the stage; she was seated behind nitya and ramyia who were in the first row beside mrs tan lah. okay moving on, yeah so mr mani came and we started with sarasara samarai. and bo shambo and so on. i thought ino was really really awesome, especially in bo shambo cos we havent played with this impact at all before. nitya and ramyia kept smiling at us, and i think that encouraged most of us to smile too. :D haha though pooni, shafali and all these people said our smiles look a lil forced, but it was great nevertheless.

okay so after ino performance, went to put back instruments in ino room, and rushed to gallery to enjoy the rest of the show. just in time for hindi song, which was great. and after that was AAJA NACHLE dance! go dancers, you guys really really rocked the stage and improved really loads, like alot! you guys really looked like our very own madhuri dixit : ria, stuti, aarthi, nisha, dharini, mansi, archana, aditi, kinnari. all of you. all of us were proud of you guys, and the coordination, the costumes, the energy everything was so vibrant and even some of the audience were bouncing and bobbing up and down on their seats, as we clapped to the aaja nachle beat! i esp loved the ending where all the dancers came together, cos it wasnt like that at all during rehearsals, and we were taken aback but everything still fitted together.

yeah so after the lovely awesome aaja nachle and soniye mil jaa amaglam was tamil singing. which was also quite cool and nice to tap to the beat. go singers!

and it was intermission. went to the canteen to find performers to round them up back to the gallery for curtain call at the end. haha and ended up bumping into pooni and all those people. they were talking about the effect of BO SHAMBO and how mr mani used to teach us songs in ino and all. pooni couldnt exactly finish her small vadais cos they were too maavu-ish for her and she force fed me those vadais. went to smuggle a milo packet upstairs, cos was practically dying of dehydration.

then when intermission was over, pooni, shafali and her friends joined the rest of the whole group of performers at the gallery. the hindi and tamil medley was good, and the singers looked really vibrant and talented. yay singers! :D

and the main highlight of the concert item : THE DRAMA. i would say it was a huge success. jokes that we rg people didnt find funny during rehearsals made the audience laugh a great deal, which is a really good thing. the kaathal yaanai varugira remo scene, the raghupathi raghava scene, the valayapatti dance, everything was perfect. and avpa people, the songs timing were really good! welllllll done to the drama cast for such an awesome splendid heartening performance:

LAVANYA KUMARESH
NAGEISWARI PARATHY
ARTHI PREMKUMAR
A.AARTHI (you absolutely rocked the stage, buddy!)
SMRITHI KEERTHIVARMAN
NIVRUTHI PRASAD
SHYAMA SADASHIV
K SOWNDARYA

haha and throughout the whole drama i was translating to shafali cos i've watched the drama like so many times, and she was like laughing like anything. see, even non-tamil speaking people LOVED the drama, that shows how much you guys rocked man! even MRS SHIRLEY TAN was laughing heartily as mentioned by aarthi!

oh and then the valayapathi dance, which rocked. by then i'd informed all the performers in the gallery to rush down immediately when the scholars started dancing. yay good, people didnt procrastinate and rushed down on time. then i arranged the people, and was like super stressed cos i was not sure whether everybody knew what to do, esp ino's performers cos we didnt practice curtain call the day before. had a difficult time splitting up ino performers, cos each side was like more uneven than the other. but in the end, we pulled off and AMAZING curtain call.

after which, was ramyia's vote of thanks. we were all like so happy and we cheered for everybody. at the end, everyone felt like doing raffles cheers as a symbolism to close the programme. i dont know how or why but everytime we make a success, it's just rather impulsive on us to cheer and celebrate and let raffles be part of us. i guess it's just the culture and unique school spirit that each and every one of us hold. yeah, did unite, regardless of the fact that we were all in our costumes and all. it was impactful, as always. (:

so after the cheers, were all the hugging, 'we did it' 'it was so great' 'man you rocked the stage' and all those exclaimings. (: and PHOTO TAKING! :D or rather camwhoring. haha yeah and then took a family photo with amma, appa, kanages and me :D kanages left with appa earlier, and i came home with amma. gave up waiting for the bus and cabbed home cos i was really really tired, cos i didnt sleep well the night before as well cos too excited anticipating the show.

and everything was over. how i miss kalachitra so much. how i miss the rehearsal sessions so much. how i miss the 'come on you can do better' naggings. everything just showcased us.

and if i would want another day for history to repeat itself in, it would definitely definitely be 5th July 08. I really want an encore, and really hope we can have another exciting show next year.

and i really love RGSICS as much as others do. (: