Hello. I was googling when I found this poem on the net, and yeah, it has alot of meaning. This is not necessarily needed to be comprehended, so it's okay if you guys dont get it, cos nobody ever gets me

I AM NOT OKAY

All of my walls that I have built surround me whole,
Cause I'm too afraid to let someone reach my soul.
Everything that I've been through; no one will know,
Doesn't matter how hard they try; I'll never show.

There's many hidden bruises engraved on my fate,
With no one bending over backwards to relate.
Silent words go drifting across the room unheard,
Erasing all of the things in my life that mattered.

Days seem like a blink of the eye; goes by too fast,
I'm still grasping for some happiness from my past.
Reaching into thin air but not finding a single thing,
Being pushed away by the caring of an angels wing.

Unsure of who I've become and who I want to be,
Leaning over the edge; stealing all that I can see.
The keys to unlock my future are buried beneath,
Inside of my skin; crawling carelessly underneath.

Smiles painted on beautifully like a piece of art,
While feeling the torture of being ripped apart.
Crashing tears that haven't felt the grounds surface,
Each and every tear drop represent the sadness.

My lips are sealed with feelings that I can't display,
And though all the pain remains the same; I'm okay.

Courtesy Of Natalie


Why is destiny and fate so...indescribable? And why has it to be the same person as a scapegoat. Concealing how you feel is hard, but yet with so much that's happening, forcing a smile,making it seem that everything's oh-so-alright is challenging. It isnt helping to look positive, on the bright side of things, cos nothing is ever bright and worth looking forward to...it just makes it seem worse, because fate is always proving wrong. Does the world even understand, what is underneath that smile, underneath it all? Everything is screwed. Everyone is screwed. The whole world is screwed. I really hope circumstances change...

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