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Saturday, August 4, 2007

Hello people. It's been a long time since I blogged. As usual.

I got loads to say. The past few days has been rather hard on me, or rather for the matter, even 107.

I just read mag's blog about the account and I really do agree with her what happened. I heard that she went to tell Ms Tay the truth of what the class was watching. I am so proud of mag for like being the only one to tell ms tay. I really knew someone had to tell her...but it couldn't be me as I only heard there was something else going on other than the tetrix, cos apparently, I was digging out my PT from my bag to work on, and when I looked up on the screen, it was only tetrix..then I kindof continued with my work...when Mr Lau came in. This is true of my conscience. I couldn't tell Ms Tay what I heard of, but didn't see it for my own eyes. Though I do know what I heard of was most probably the truth. If I had seen it, I would definitely cleared my conscience and tell Ms Tay what happened. Mag, now I think you see why I didn't tell. Anyway, I am really glad that mag got the guts to admit in behalf of the class.

Ms Tay is really a poor poor thing. We have been giving her a hard time in her first few month(s) in RGS. and it has caused her alot of emotional disturbance and I really sympathise with her. She was almost close to tears when she spoke to us regarding the matter during Lit lesson yesterday. After all that has happened, to think that she forgives us, want to give us a second chance and wants to wipe the platter clean and start all new is really...great of her. It's really great that no words can possibly explain this. It is the biggest chance she has given to prove to her once more as we are NOT a class always in trouble but instead, a caring class that learnt from their previous mistakes and are more vigilant of their actions. Like Mrs Anis said, we all want to create a caring environment for everyone right?

I think, next maybe I want to say my thoughts and feelings about Mr Lau. Actually if you reason out, it is totally no fault of Mr Lau at all; he did what he had to do as a discipline master, or even a teacher for the matter. We did wrong and we have to face the consequences. Isn't it unfair if he gives us the leeway when after all, WE were the ones who did wrong, not him. Though majority of us dint noe that this was a bookable offence. Some of us will still hold a grudge against Mr Lau and stuff, but then my question is, what is this unnecessary grudges for? Mr Lau is still our dear Chem teacher who is gonna teach us Chem for the rest of the year. So if you hold a grudge, it will be definitely be unpleasant for both you and Mr Lau. I think we ought to prove it to Mr Lau, similar to Ms Tay.

I do not want to point any fingers on anyone or put the blame on anyone. Reflecting about this incident, what I feel is that this incident is not a matter of bookings or whatsoever we might receive, or whatever consequences we have to face(though I know it still plays apart), we have learnt a very valuable lesson as a class and at least I am glad of that. Don't put the blame on others, though it's still not your fault at times, cause after all, we all belong to 107'07, right? We really gotta hold on and accept it as part and parcel of our life...the ups and downs. But throught every experience, there is still something valuable to look into and I hope you guys will see the value of the incident and not sulk of what had happened. After all, nobody is perfect...we all got our own faults in us, so dont put the blame on yourself too. Just see what you have gained and do not repeat the mistake in future.

Though I know you probably wont read this Ms Tay, or even Mr Lau, this is what I really want to say to you people, cos probably I cant bring myself to it in person. You might not read it, but yeah, probably you will feel it.

To Ms Tay, sorry for all the emotional hurt we have caused you. I know we have been giving you a rather hard time, but truly honestly, it was NOT meant to be on purpose. It's not that 107 doesn't like you or whatsoever...to tell the truth, we LOVE you.<3 You have been really really understanding to us and we really appreciate it Ms Tay. We will try our best to prove it to you okay? I hope that we can all forgive and forget this incident though it will definitely leave a mark in our hearts. Once again, THANKS ALOT MS TAY!

To Mr Lau, really sorry for what we, as a class had said and had mislead you in this matter. I couldn't really tell much as I was not really aware of the accurate facts. While writing our accounts, I guarantee that most of us, or maybe all of us for that matter have realised our mistakes and through your series of talking you had with us (one on Thursday, the day itself, and one on Friday, after assembly), I can tell that we have gained alot of takeaways from this incident. And we feel that we truly deserve the punishment for what we have done - firstly the mistake, secondly, nor correcting your misconception, and lastly, making it seem as if it was Ms Tay's fault. I know that no words can express the regret that we are feeling and the emotional disturbance we have caused to everyone else. I really hope you can give us a second chance to prove it to you Mr Lau...WE WILL DEFINITELY PROVE IT TO YOU!

This message not only goes out to Ms Tay and Mr Lau, but all teachers who we had done wrong to. Give us a chance. With time, I am sure that we will all prove it to you. We might not be the best class, but we do learn from our mistakes and do not repeat them in future. Trust my words. Trust OUR words...

Though I know that not all 107ers read my blog and whatsoever, I can be 100% sure that we are all feeling the same kind of feelings of regret and remorse...cos of one thing that we have in common, this unique thing that makes us uniquely 107 - our caring heart...

With that, I end my post. I think I have led out the burden that I've been carrying in my heart and what I really feel and think. Sometimes, certain things just can't be said out, and it's much easier to write it down. My conscience it's clear once again and I am all geared up to wipe the platter clean...

Being 13 is really tough and challenging ...



P/S : I have decided not to use the word 'damn' anymore as said by Mrs Anis as it is like a swear word. Since it's so common for me to use the word really frequently, pls do me a favour by reminding me not to use the word when I subconsciously use them accidentally in occasions when there is a slip of the tongue.

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